It is the morning of day one. Yep 0030 07 August 2009. Yes there's a missed day in there. Nothing good happened, but I made this blog to be honest (timeforachangeHONESTLY...).
I failed when I know I shouldn't have. I chose to visit the wrong section of a normally fine website. The worst part is, you need an account to do it and I had one specifically for that purpose. You have to make no fewer than four deliberate choices to see this. My new deviantArt account is HeavymetalCowboy4Him (yeah, I know I'm the farthest thing from an artist, but I need a legitimate one, plus it deleted my other one because I used the same email). I used to have a similar problem with youtube, but I created a legitimate account for that too. CleanforChrist is my youtube name because I only look at clean videos now. There was one exception, but it was mostly appropriate and I was stealing a quote that I had heard in previous encounters. That's right, my censorship quotes were stolen from a youtube video. I'm on one other social network (facebook aside) and I'll probably not join anymore. I'm on pianofiles. Play4Him is my name and if you want one of my sheets, just ask. Okay. Moving on.
Other things about yesterday that I want to share. I found myself on the internet for longer than my three hours (mainly because my friend got back from England and I talked to her for a long time). Discipline: I'm limited to two hours of web browser, which should be lots until I get to school. As much as I love getting back from work and talking to friends until they go to work, I can't do that anymore because then I don't sleep. I haven't had real sleep in three days. When I get back the the house, I'm sleeping. One more thing, my phone is disconnected (yep, that time of year again) so if you're trying to get a hold of me, try msn, skype, facebook me to call you, or use them fingers which are in good shape from texting and call me (yeah, I know you have to remember what the numbers mean...SUCK IT UP) 463-2497.
I would really appreciate your prayer as I try and get going on this new day one so that I can post on my blog, "Sucess! My struggles were minimal and I start day two now. In other news..." and then I can tell you what the rest of this whole transformation my life is going to be undertaking. Pornography is a small part of it and it's stealling the show. Thank you so much and God bless you all.
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