Of Thinking and Doing

Good morning...I think. Give me four hours and then it'll be a good morning. As of right now, it's 4:25 am and I'm tired. I'm downright exhausted without any reasonable explanation. Sure I didn't sleep a whole lot last night, but I had a 6 hour nap right before work. That's like twice as much sleep as I need on a daily basis. Okay, maybe it's the ideal, but it's still sufficient. On top of my sleep craving is food craving. I'm starving. I slept through supper at the house and there is no meal left out for me at work...good thing I ate at Ryan's baptism.

So what's the dealio with today? Today is day one, again. I've been slightly depressed and down and really unmotivated for the last few days. I had no reason to do anything and as a result, life just continued without me. Not really sure how to say it. This last day and a half have been quite motivational and have helped straighten out my mind. So far, I've done a lot of talking and put very little actual effort into following through. I've had a solid plan and thought out what I wanted, but I did nothing about it. I believe God will give us food, but we have to pick up the apple and move it to our mouth. God's got the way, but He requires a little effort on our part.

So, this is a new commitment to pick up the spoon and feed myself. Enough thinking about it, time to get 'er done. Although, I do have some new thoughts. Typically, I get off work, put in a movie and fall asleep to it...with my computer open to whatever was on the screen. Rather than having a computer so readily available in the morning (HUGE stumbling block), I'm going to go to sleep with my Bible on top of a closed computer and not open it until I've done devos. I think that will help a lot with the struggles and the laziness surrounding devotions and prayer time.

My other thoughts are evading me for the time being. I blame the hunger and tiredness. So for now, I'm going to call it a post and maybe I'll do a second one later. God bless and keep feeding the fire.