A Successful Day Two

Today is day two and I'm excited! Okay well, now that I'm done typing this, it's actually 0130 day three and I'm tired, but anyways. I slept most of the day, but when I woke up I struggled quite a bit. I probably wouldn't have made it through, except for a very special friend who came online at exactly the right time. Coincidence? No such thing! Is it God's divine timing? Absolutely! And that is the power of prayer, which is why I asked for and greatly appreciate your prayers.

That's all on my struggles for today, so I have this opportunity to share where I'm at and where I want to go. Will I take it? Yep! Time for another issue that I want to change. I profess to be a Christian and I believe, but often my life does not reflect that. I have never kept a steady prayer life and I have never held to my daily devotions for more than a couple weeks (like two, not like six). My language is downright aweful a lot of the time. I can be cruel and manipulative and selfish. I really don't like who I am. This is why I started this blog and this is where I'm at. So where would I like to end up? Where am I headed?

Ideally, I would like God to be the centre of my life again. I want to be at a place where my tongue is tamed. I want to have the self control I used to. I'm going to end up with a steady, faith-filled prayer life and consistent daily devotions. I hope to be known as someone who has changed a lot (for the good obviously). Someone who is kind and compassionate. a man of integrity. I want to be someone who is respected, not because I've done something worthy of respect, but because there is just something about me worth respecting; I want to be that person who stands tall and knows what he is about even if no one else does. That's the character I would like to develop in my life. I won't get there by trying to act it; it will take a change from within starting in the heart. A total transformation (thus the name of this blog).

I haven't shared my past yet as I'm working up to being able to tell my full story. I haven't shared my dream for the future yet because I simply haven't had time. It won't happen tonight because I'm tired and I've blogged long enough for you guys for one day. I spent 1 hour 47 minutes on the web, by the way. So for now I bid you goodnight and sleep well. God bless.