Ladies and Gentlemen, Welcome!
Some of you know others of you don't, but this is my second blog. I have retired my first one; however, for those of you who want to know some of the past behind this, you can find it at www.healingpowerofshedblood.blogspot.com.
If I already have one blog, why am I starting this one? Who knows! Oh wait, that's me...sorry, I've been up for quite a while now and am actually at work typing this at 0522 hours. A little bit of nonsense just pushes life along at this point. The purpose of this blog is threefold. First, it allows me to keep my friends up to date and let them all know what's going on without telling the same story 20 times. Two, it allows me to document the journey of my life and gives me something to do so I'm not bored alone on the internet (which you'll later learn is a bad thing). Finally and most importantly, it provides accountability. Some people trying to break certain addictions hear about "accountability partners," but I'm going to have 6 billion accountability partners. That's actually a slightly terrifying thought, but oh well.
Those who read my last blog know that it ended with a talk on censorship. Well, I'm not real big on secrets (clarify: I don't keep my own, but I keep other peoples') and beating around the bush tends to tick me right off. Now I can understand if you're trying to talk about an awkward subject and you're trying to be gentle (i.e. birds and the bees to a six-year-old and the "special hug"), but when it comes to the truth I don't like it sugar coated. If you dropped the ball say, "I dropped the ball;" don't tell me, "I may have slightly lowered the elevation of a particular spherical object slightly." I like a spade called a spade. To quote one of my mentors, "Tell us what you're really thinking." So here is my response to my previous censorship post:
"The fact is that censorship always defeats it's own purpose, for it creates in the end, the kind of society that is incapable of excercising real discretion." ~Henry Steele Major
"There are times for everybody that they need to be purely honest; to not care about judgement or censorship...to speak what is in your heart or on your mind; to refuse to measure your words; to be unabashably honest and real. Right now, I will be open. I will say what I feel I must without concern for rules, expectations or suppression." ~Unknown
If an employer doesn't want to hire me because they saw my blog on the internet and have found that I'm human, not perfect, and have some serious flaws. Fine. I truly couldn't care less. If there is something that is supposed to happen, then God will make it happen. I'm not going to hide behind a mask and pretend anymore for job security or money. My God is bigger than this world and all the money in it; He WILL look after me. If a school turns me down because of my blog, fine. If it's God's will for my life, He will take care of it. But here is where my fear hits me...
Dearest friends, some of you know my story and some of you do not. I see it as full of horrors and things that should be locked away in dark corners forever. Those who know all or even most of my story should feel honoured if I told you. In most cases, I cried and worried and stressed hardcore before you found out. Most days when I look in the mirror, I hate what I see. I wouldn't be surprised if others agree. If I lose friends by sharing my story, I'll understand through the pain. Ideally, the Rich approach would be nice: a hug and, "I understand Bro." Although, many won't understand. If the past doesn't lose me any friends, I'm sure the future will.
And that, is what this blog is all about: the future. The title of the blog is "Transformation" because it will follow the transformation of my life. It may sound all doom and gloom to borrow the colloaqualism, but it is planned as a joyous blog. But this has dragged on long enough. Where I'm coming from and where I'm hoping to end up will wait until next time. Until then, take care and God Bless.
Love and Peace,
Lance
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